László
Krasznahorkai
Heavenly
Vision? Hallucination?
An
excerpt from the novel Satantango
As
soon as they
rounded the bend and lost
sight of the people waving and hanging around by the bar, his
heavy-as-lead sense of exhaustion vanished and he no longer felt any of
the agonizing sleepiness that had practically glued him to the chair by
the oil stove, because ever since Irimiás had told him something he had
never even dared to dream of (‘All right, go and talk it over with your
mother. You can come with me if you like…’) he couldn’t bear to close
his eyes, and spent the whole night turning over and over in his bed
with his clothes on so as not to miss the arranged dawn meeting; and
now, when, through mist and half-light, he saw the road ahead arrowing
into infinity his strength was redoubled and at last he felt ‘the whole
world opening up before him’, and he knew that whatever happened he
would stay the course. And however great the desire in him to give
voice somehow to his enthusiasm he controlled it and unconsciously
measured his steps in a more disciplined fashion, following his master
even while burning with the fever of his election, since he knew he
could only carry out the mission granted him if he responded not as a
snotty-nosed kid but as a man—not to mention the fact that if he did
speak without thinking the constantly irritable Petrina was bound to
come out with some new mocking remark and he couldn’t bear to be
humiliated before Irimiás, not even once. It was perfectly clear to him
that his own best option was faithfully to copy Irimiás in every small
detail because this way he was sure not to get a nasty surprise; first
he watched his characteristic movements, his long easy stride, his
proud bearing and raised head, the now challenging, now threatening
movements of his raised right forefinger the moment before he made a
significant remark and, most difficult, the falling cadence of his
voice and the heavy silence between the distinct elements of his
speech, noting the control of his resonant proclamations, and trying to
capture something of the undoubted confidence that so generously
permitted Irimiás to articulate his thoughts with such precision. Not
for a moment did his eyes leave his master’s slightly stooped back and
narrow brimmed hat pulled firmly down so as to prevent the rain beating
against his face; and seeing that his master paid no attention
whatsoever to him because his mind was clearly intent on something
else, he too walked on in silence with an earnestly wrinkled brow,
because by concentrating his attention like this he liked to think that
he was helping Irimiás’s own thoughts reach their goal more quickly.
Petrina scratched his ear in agony because, seeing the tense expression
on his companion’s face, he himself did not dare break the silence, so,
however he tried to give the kid a look to indicate that he should keep
mum (‘Not a peep out of you! He’s thinking!’) he too felt constrained
and was so desperate to ask questions he could only breathe with
difficulty, making first whistling, then dry hoarse sounds as he did
so, until eventually it became plain even to Irimiás that the heroic
figure holding his tongue beside him was practically choking, so he
made a face and took pity on him. “Go on, out with it! What do you
want?” Petrina gave a great sigh, licked his cracked lips and started
blinking rapidly. “Master! I am shitting myself here! How are we going
to get out of this?!” “I must say I’d be pretty surprised if you
weren’t shitting yourself,” Irimiás replied, annoyed “Would you like
some paper to wipe yourself with?” Petrina shook his head. “It’s no
joke. I’d be lying if I told you my sides were splitting with
laughter…” “In that case shut your mouth.” Irimiás gazed haughtily down
the road fading in the distance up ahead. He stuck a cigarette in the
corner of his mouth and lit it without breaking step. “If I were to
tell you that this was precisely the opportunity we had been waiting
for,” he confidently declared, looking deep into Petrina’s eyes, “would
that reassure you?” His companion flinched a little under his gaze then
bent his head, stopped and thought a little, and by the time he had
caught up with Irimiás again he was so nervous he could
hardly
get the words out. “Wha…wha… what are you thinking?” Irimiás made no
reply but continued gazing mysteriously down the road. Petrina was so
tortured by anxieties that he tried to seek some explanation for the
profoundly meaningful silence and so—despite knowing the effort to be
vain —tried to delay the inevitable disaster. “Listen to me! I have
stood by you all this time, through good times and bad times. I swear,
if I do nothing else with my miserable life, that I will flatten anyone
who dares to be disrespectful to you! But…don’t do anything crazy!
Listen to me just this once! Listen to good old Petrina! Let’s forget
it, forget it now, immediately! Let’s hop on the first train and get
out! These people will lynch us the moment they discover the dirty
trick we’ve pulled on them!” “No chance,” Irimiás mocked him. “We are
taking up the demanding, indeed hopeless, cause of human dignity…” He
raised his famous forefinger and warned Petrina, “Listen, jackass! This
is our moment!” “God help us then,” groaned Petrina, seeing his worst
nightmares realized. “I’ve always known it! I trusted…I believed…I
hoped…and here we are! This is how it ends!” “You must be joking!” the
“kid” behind them butted in: “Can’t you take things seriously for
once?” “Me?!” squealed Petrina, “me, I’m happy as a pig in shit, you
can practically see me drooling…” Grinding his teeth he looked up to
the heavens and shook his head in despair. “Be honest with me! What
have I done to deserve this? Have I ever hurt anyone? Have I spoken out
of turn? I beg you boss, have some regard, if for nothing else, for
these old bones! Take pity on these gray hairs!” But Irimiás was not to
be swayed: his partner’s words went in one ear and out of the other. He
just smiled mysteriously and said, “The network, jackass…” Hearing the
word, Petrina immediately perked up. “Do you understand now?”
They stopped and faced each other, Irimiás slightly leaning forward.
“It’s the network, that enormous spiderweb, as woven and patented by
me, Irimiás …Am I getting this through your thick head? Has a light
come on there? Anywhere?” Life began to seep back into Petrina, first
as the faint shadow of a smile flickering across his face, then as a
distinct sparkle in his beady eyes, his ears reddening with excitement
until his whole being was visibly moved. “Somewhere…wait… Something
rings a bell…I think I’m getting it now…” he whispered hoarsely. “It
would be fantastic if…how shall I put it…” “You see,” Irimiás gave a
cool nod. “Think first, whine later.” The “kid” was following at a
respectful distance behind them but his keen ears helped him pick up
their conversation: he hadn’t missed a word and because he had not the
slightest idea of what they were talking about he quickly repeated it
all to himself so he shouldn’t forget it. He pulled out a cigarette,
lit it and, like Irimiás, slowly and deliberately pursed his lips and
blew out the smoke in a faint straight line. He did not try to catch up
but followed, as he had done, some eight or ten steps behind because he
felt ever more hurt that his master had not chosen to “let him into the
secret”, though he should have known that he—unlike the constantly
complaining Petrina—would have given his soul to be part of
the
plan: he had, after all, promised to be unconditionally faithful to the
end. The tortures of jealousy seemed infinite, the bitterness in his
soul growing ever more bitter since he was obliged to see that Irimiás
thought him unworthy of a single remark, not one! His master ignored
him altogether, as if “he simply wasn’t there”, as if the idea, “Sándor
Horgos, who is not after all a nobody, has offered his services” meant
absolutely nothing to him… He was so upset he accidentally scratched an
ugly acne spot on his face and once they reached the fork at Póstelek
he could bear it no longer but rushed to catch up with them, looked
Irimiás in the eyes and, trembling with fury, cried: “I’m not going on
with you like this!” Irimiás regarded him with incomprehension. “What
was that?” “If you have any problems with me tell now, please! Tell me
you don’t trust me and I’ll get lost right now!” “What’s up with you?”
Petrina snapped. “Nothing in the world is wrong with me! Just tell me
whether you want me with you or not! You haven’t said a single word to
me ever since we set out, it was always just Petrina, Petrina, Petrina!
If you’re so fond of him, why invite me along?!” “Now hold on a
second,” Irimiás calmly stopped him. “I think I understand now. Listen
hard to what I tell you because there won’t be time for this later… I
invited you because I need a capable young man like you. But only if
you can do the following: One, you only speak when I address you. Two,
if I entrust you with anything you’ll do your best to get it done.
Three, get used to the idea of not giving me lip. For the time being it
is up to me to decide what I tell you and what I don’t. Is that
clear?…” The “kid” lowered his eyes in embarrassment. “Yes, I just…”
“No “I just”. Act like a man. In any case, I know what you’re capable
of, my boy and I don’t think you’ll let me down…But enough now. Let’s
get going!” Petrina gave the “kid” a friendly slap on the back but then
forgot to remove his hand and propelled him along. “See here, you
little piece of shit, when I was your age, I didn’t dare open my mouth
when there were adults present! I fell silent, silent as the grave, if
an adult was anywhere near! Because in those days there was no back
talk. Not like today! What would you know about…” He suddenly stopped.
“What was that?” “What was what?” “That…that noise…” “I don’t hear
anything,” the “kid” said, puzzled. “What you mean you don’t hear
anything! Not even now?” They listened, holding their breath: a few
steps ahead of them Irimiás stood stock-still too, listening. They were
at the Póstelek fork, the rain gently pattering, not a soul to be seen
anywhere, only a few crows circling in the distance. It seemed to
Petrina that the noise was coming from somewhere above him, and he
silently pointed to the sky but Irimiás shook his head. “From there,
rather…” he pointed towards the town. “A car?…” “Maybe,” his master
answered, clearly troubled. They did not move. The humming neither
strengthened nor weakened. “Some kind of plane, perhaps…,” the “kid”
tentatively suggested. “No, not likely…,” said Irimiás. “But in any
case we’ll take the shorter route. We’ll go down the Póstelek road as
far as Wenkheim Manor, then we’ll take the older road. We may even gain
four or five hours that way…” “Have you any idea how muddy that road
is?!” Petrina protested in fury. “I know. But I don’t like this sound.
It would be better for us to choose the other road. There we are sure
not to meet anyone.” “Meet who?” “What do I know? Let’s get going.”
They left the metalled road, and set off toward Póstelek. Petrina was
continually looking back over his shoulder, nervously scanning the
landscape, but didn’t see anything. By now he could have sworn that the
noise was coming from somewhere above them. “But it’s not a plane…It’s
more like a church organ…ah, that’s crazy!” He stopped, went down on
hands and knees and put an ear to the ground. “No. Definitely not. It’s
crazy!” The low hum continued, no nearer, no further away. However he
searched his memory the humming wasn’t like anything he had ever heard
before. It wasn’t the roar of a car or a plane or of distant thunder…
He had a bad feeling about it. He swiveled his head left and right,
sensing danger in every bush, in every scraggy tree, even in the narrow
wayside ditch covered in frogspawn. The most terrifying thing was that
he couldn’t even decide whether the menace, whatever it was, was close
at hand or at a distance. He turned a suspicious eye on the “kid.”
“Look here! Have you eaten today? It’s not your stomach rumbling?”
“Don’t be an idiot, Petrina,” Irimiás remarked over his shoulder. “And
get a move on!”…They were some quarter of mile from the fork
now, when they noticed something else beside the worryingly continuous
humming. It was Petrina who first became aware of it: incapable even of
saying a word, it was only through his eyes he could register the
shock. His dull eyes started from their sockets, gazing at the sky,
indicating the source. To the right of them above the marshy lifeless
ground, a white transparent veil was billowing in a particularly
dignified fashion. They hardly had the time to take it in before they
were startled to see the veil vanish as soon as it touched the ground.
“Pinch me!” groaned Petrina shaking his head in disbelief.
[...]
Published in 1985
and made into a seven-hour film by Béla Tarr that has by now attained
cultic status, Satantango is Krasznahorkai’s
breakthrough work. The
novel takes place in a dilapidated, weather-beaten village, unnamed but
unmistakably
Hungarian, whose
inhabitants eek out a miserable existence. “Their world is rough and
ready, lost somewhere
between the comic and tragic, in one small insignificant corner of the
cosmos.
Theirs is the dance of death,” writes George Szirtes, the translator of
the novel. With the
onset of autumn rains, life has come to a virtual standstill for the
villagers when two vagrant
characters arrive. Long believed dead, Petrina and the grandiloquent
Irimiás are small-time
swindlers who promise redemption while craving it themselves. In this
excerpt they are joined by
the kid, a character responsible for the suicide of his sister. As they
march along in the battering
rain they are surprised by a chilling apparition: the girl’s veiled
corpse hovering in the fog.
Satantango,
translated by George Szirtes, is forthcoming in February 2012
by New
Directions.
This excerpt is published by arrangement with
New Directions
Publishing, New York,
Copyright © 1985 by László Krasznahorkai and
Copyright © 2012 by George Szirtes, all rights reserved.